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「但有些路該走，有些文字該寫，有些相遇在未來等著，有些故事等著被敘述，有些問題等著被解答，有些畫面等著被發現，以印證那些道理。」

－《路過這個世界教我的事》，黃于洋。

年末的心聲

進入這一年最後的季節，卻彷彿已站在新年的起點上。我剪短了頭髮，這是一種來自心底的催促，一種呼喚：不要再為外在的形式所攪擾，應該更專注於身心靈的扎根與活力。這是內心深處的一種重整，一種準備，為來年的更新而蓄力。

今天，說話間忽然浮現一個深刻的記憶。還記得今年二月的農曆新年，那時與母親之間發生了一場爭執。吵到後來，爭執聲漸漸熄滅，只聽見母親對我說：「你沒看見我已經進步了嗎？你就不能鼓勵我嗎？」那一刻，心裡被深深觸動。這句話不僅是母親的心聲，更像是主藉著她對我的提醒——不要對重要的人計較不重要的事，也不要對不重要的人計較重要的事。這是一生都需要學習的功課。

時間快轉到現在，十二月的日曆翻開，我看著過去的十個月，像是在為自己寫一份年度的結案報告。我問自己：

• 今年的我，是否比過去更接近那個自己欣賞的樣子？

• 我是否還是那個提著燈，想要照亮黑暗的小女孩？

• 神賜予我的恩賜，我是否用來全力榮耀祂，而不被他人的眼光或自我懷疑所束縛？

• 我的知識、能力、與資源，是否真正用來書寫這片土地上屬於主的故事？

為什麼要憂慮時間？憂慮體力？我們在地上的年日是有限的，寫文章、見證主恩的機會更是如此。就當趁現在，把最好的留下來，為主記錄這段旅程。

我回想過去的一些自以為是——那些「以為已經知道」的事，其實並不了解。逞強與堅強是兩回事，真正的堅強，是承認自己的脆弱，接納自己的極限。不再自責，不再懊悔，而是用神賜予的長處去彌補短處。這不只是我的經歷，而是我們每個人的故事。

正如詩篇127:1所說：

「若不是耶和華建造房屋，建造的人就枉然勞力。」

一切努力若沒有神的同在，都是徒然。然而，當我把這些都交託給祂，便發現祂早已為我鋪好了前路。

我慶幸自己仍然有感動的能力，能在心靈深處感謝、感恩。活著，真好；好好地活著，更是值得珍惜。

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Year-End Reflections

As we step into the final season of the year, it feels as though we are already standing at the threshold of a new one. I cut my hair short—a subtle yet profound prompting from within, a call to focus less on outward appearances and more on rooting my body, mind, and spirit in vitality. It is an internal reorganization, a preparation, gathering strength for renewal in the year to come.

Today, in conversation, a vivid memory surfaced. I remembered the Lunar New Year in February and a conflict I had with my mother. Our argument eventually subsided, leaving only her voice echoing in my ears: “Don’t you see that I’ve made progress? Can’t you encourage me?” Her words struck a deep chord in my heart. They were not just her heartfelt plea but also a divine reminder through her—a lesson to not sweat the small stuff with those who matter most and to not let trivial things cloud our interactions with those who don’t. This is a lesson for a lifetime.

Fast forward to now, as December’s calendar flips open, I look back over the past ten months as if writing an annual report for myself. I ask:

• Am I closer this year to becoming the person I admire?
• Am I still that little girl holding a lamp, wanting to light up the darkness?
• Have I used the gifts God has given me to glorify Him fully, without being shackled by others’ opinions or my own self-doubt?
• Have my knowledge, abilities, and resources truly been used to write a story for this land that belongs to the Lord?

Why worry about time? About physical strength? Our days on earth are limited, and so are the opportunities to write and bear witness to the Lord’s grace. Seize the moment, and leave the best behind—to record this journey for Him.

I reflect on past instances of misplaced certainty—those things I “thought I already knew" but didn’t truly understand. Pretending to be strong and being genuinely strong are two different things. True strength lies in admitting one’s weaknesses and accepting one’s limitations. It means no longer blaming or regretting but using the strengths God has given us to fill in the gaps of our shortcomings. This is not just my journey; it is the story of each of us.

As Psalm 127:1 says:
“Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain.”

All efforts are in vain without God’s presence. Yet, when I entrust everything to Him, I find He has already paved the way ahead for me.

I am grateful that I still have the capacity to feel deeply, to give thanks, and to appreciate life from the depths of my soul. To be alive is a blessing; to live well is a treasure worth cherishing.