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「除了說出口的話之外，沒什麼不能修的。」

－《路過這個世界教我的事》，黃于洋。

改變的漣漪

「沒有人一開始就能改變世界的。我先改變身邊的朋友，然後他們再影響更多人，就像漣漪一樣慢慢擴大。也許我還是無法改變整個世界，但只要有一個人的一生因為我而變得更好，那就足夠了。」他說。

這段話像一顆種子，落在我心中，隨著時間生根發芽。過去的兩天，我經歷了一場內心的掙扎，如同走過一條情緒上的「死蔭幽谷」。特別是在面對家人時，我感受到自己被迫重新審視我們之間的關係。

跳脫固有的角色定位
隨著年齡的增長，兄弟姐妹各自散居，工作環境和性格的改變，使得我們之間的相處方式也必須隨之調整。以往，或許我們習慣了彼此孩提時期的角色定位，但成長的過程迫使我們學會以更成熟、更寬容的眼光看待對方。

我開始意識到，真正的自我常常在無人的時候才得以完全顯現。但這並不意味著日常的我是虛假的，而是提醒我需要思考：「我喜歡怎樣的自己？」以及「我該如何以這樣的樣子在地上活著？」當這些問題浮現時，我不再需要與家人爭辯，也不需要說出憤怒的話，因為我深信，申冤屬於主，而非我。我只需要學會將一切交託給祂。

職場中的反思
在工作中，我同樣開始省察自己對人的態度和方式。有時，當被要求完成一些我不願意做的事時，我內心會感到委屈，甚至不禁抱怨：「為什麼又是我？」但當我停下來回望自己的夢想與專長，我發現主早已為我預備了一條道路。只是，我常以自我為中心，偏好只做自己喜歡的事，或過於在意他人是否尊重我。

我逐漸明白，幫助他人是主給我的使命。即便是簡單的文字訊息，甚至面對他人語氣不佳時，我曾感到不被尊重而生氣。但回頭看，這些情緒往往反映了我內心的執著，提醒我需要放下對地上事物的過度依戀。

重新得力
詩篇七十三篇26節說：
「我的肉體和我的心腸衰殘，但神是我心裏的磐石，又是我的業分，直到永遠。」

這句話為我的心注入了力量。雖然我並非聖人，不能完美無瑕，但我卻找到了一條讓自己思想自由、心胸敞開、情緒不受捆綁的道路。這條道路，將我從情緒的幽谷中帶出，使我重新得力，並幫助我以更加平靜和堅定的心，去面對每一天的挑戰與使命。

願我能成為主手中那漣漪的起點，即使改變微小，也能帶來永恆的意義。

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“The Ripples of Change"

“No one can change the world all at once, but we can start small. I’ll begin by changing the people around me, and then they will influence others, creating ripples that slowly grow. Perhaps I still won’t be able to change the world as a whole, but if I can improve even one person’s life, that would be enough," he said.

These words, like a seed, took root in my heart and began to grow. Over the past two days, I felt as though I were walking through an emotional “valley of the shadow of death." Particularly when facing my family, I was forced to reevaluate our relationships.

Breaking Free from Fixed Roles

As we grow older, siblings scatter, and our work environments and personalities change, forcing us to adapt how we interact with one another. Perhaps we were accustomed to the roles we played in childhood, but the process of maturing teaches us to view each other with greater tolerance and understanding.

I began to realize that my true self often only comes out when I’m alone. However, this doesn’t mean the version of me in daily life is false—it prompts me to ask: “What kind of person do I enjoy being?" and “How can I live on earth in a way that reflects my true self?"

When these questions arise, I find that I no longer need to argue with my family or speak out in anger, for I firmly believe that vengeance belongs to the Lord, not me. My role is simply to learn to entrust everything to Him.

Reflections in the Workplace

At work, I’ve also started to examine my attitude and approach to others. Sometimes, when I’m asked to do something I don’t want to do, I feel resentment and think, “Why me again?" But when I pause to reflect on my dreams, talents, and interests, I realize that the Lord has already paved the way for me.

Too often, I’m self-centered, only wanting to do what I like or being overly concerned with whether others respect me. But gradually, I’ve come to understand that helping others is a mission entrusted to me by the Lord.

Even with something as simple as sending a text message, I sometimes feel wronged or upset by someone’s tone or attitude. Looking back, these emotions often revealed my attachment to earthly matters, reminding me to let go of excessive attachment to things of this world.

Renewed Strength

Psalm 73:26 says:
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

These words infused my heart with strength. Though I am not a saint and can never be perfect, I have discovered a path that allows me to open my heart, free my mind, and be unbound by emotions.

This path has brought me out of the valley of emotional turmoil, helping me to regain strength and face each day’s challenges and missions with greater peace and determination.

May I become the starting point of the Lord’s ripple effect, creating even the smallest changes that carry eternal significance.