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「原以為堅強的人沒有脆弱的一面，但是所謂堅強就是承認自己的軟弱。我還是什麼都不懂，一直跑、一直跌倒。我需要將那些好事等待著被延續的逗號，填上一段被偷走的時光，孤獨也許是必須的，讓世界教我如何與自己和解。」

－《路過這個世界教我的事》，黃于洋。

孤獨的深刻，與主的甜美

有一種孤獨，大概是這樣的感覺：即使我當下擁有你的聯絡方式，即使我們此刻談得再開心，我依然清楚地知道，唯一不變的就是變。我們都會從彼此的生命中漸行漸遠，即使靠得再近、交流再深刻，時間終將把這一切帶走。當我按下快門記錄那一瞬間，我心裡明白，我們或許不會再見面。

那麼，我該怎麼跟你說話呢？我該如何活在當下，珍惜此刻的存在？我又該怎樣對待自己，讓生命更有重量？這樣的思緒，往往在每一次交流、討論、合作時反覆浮現，伴隨著每一分鐘、每一次相聚而沉澱心中。

然而，我也清楚地知道，這世上唯一不會改變的，是主耶穌的同在。只有祂，是我們真正的朋友；只要呼喊祂的名字，就能與祂說話。這是一個極大的奧秘，更是一個無價的保障。這樣的認識與經歷，不只是我的幸運，也是主耶穌給予我們的託付。祂希望那些享受過祂的人，能為祂說話，為祂做光亮的見證。

因此，我們需要受訓練、受操練，學習將生活中的一切都帶到祂面前。犯錯是好的，不完美是好的，失敗是好的；挫折是好的，痛苦是好的，因為這代表我們還有感覺，還在被調整。開心是好的，懊惱是好的，猶豫和徬徨也是好的，因為這些都成為我們與主之間甜美故事的一部分。

在神，沒有難成的事。一切的經歷，無論美好或困苦，都是祂以愛親自寫下的篇章。我們所能做的，是將自己交託給祂，在這份不變的愛裡，找到與人相處的智慧，找到對自己溫柔的勇氣，更找到那份永不離棄的平安與喜樂。

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The Profundity of Solitude and the Sweetness of the Lord

There is a solitude that feels like this: even though we share this moment—conversing, laughing, and exchanging thoughts—I am deeply aware of life’s impermanence. Time will eventually carry us in different directions, leaving our connection as a cherished memory. Even as I press the shutter to capture a fleeting moment, I know in my heart that it may be the last time we meet.

So, how should I speak to you, knowing this truth? How can I truly embrace the present and treasure these transient encounters? And how should I treat myself so that life holds deeper meaning? These questions arise in every interaction, linger in every conversation, and echo after every goodbye.

But amidst this fleeting existence, I find certainty in one thing: the unchanging presence of the Lord Jesus. He is our constant, true friend, ever present and ever near. Whenever we call upon His name, He listens. This is not only a profound mystery but also an incomparable treasure—a gift entrusted to us by the Lord Himself. He calls us, who have tasted His goodness, to testify of His light and speak for Him in a world that so desperately needs His presence.

The Sweetness of Training in the Lord

Because of this calling, we are not only invited but also trained and exercised to bring every aspect of our lives before Him. In this process, even our shortcomings become precious.

• Mistakes remind us of our need for grace.

• Imperfections and failures reveal His sufficiency.

• Frustrations and pain refine us, proving we are still alive and growing.

Similarly, joy and regret, hesitation and clarity—all are threads woven into the sweet story between us and the Lord. He takes every experience, joyful or painful, and turns it into a masterpiece.

A Love That Redeems All

With God, nothing is impossible. Every moment—whether filled with laughter or tears—is written by His hand, in love. And what is our role in this grand narrative? To entrust ourselves to Him, allowing His unchanging love to reshape our hearts. In His presence, we find:

• Wisdom to connect with others meaningfully, despite the impermanence of life.

• Courage to treat ourselves with gentleness, embracing both strength and vulnerability.

• Peace and joy that anchor us, never to be taken away.

In this solitude, I find the sweetness of His company. In the fleeting nature of life, I see His eternal hand at work. And in every encounter, I am reminded that though all things may change, His love remains steadfast—a truth that gives every moment eternal value.