If the Father would have us walk on a solid stone path, He would first give us shoes of iron or bronze; He will never send us out on a rough path without first preparing us for it. (McCraw)
如果父要我們走在堅固的石路上，祂必先給我們穿上鐵鞋或銅鞋；祂決不會不先替我們預備好了，就差我們出外去走崎嶇的路。 (麥克勞)
該怎麼說呢？此刻的心情只想說，我對主柔細的引導感到震懾，任憑言辭如何編織，似乎都無法完整負荷內心的震動。
前天晚上，我收到一則消息——我的高中同學離世了，因為不堪病毒的攻擊過世了。我看到這則訊息時，背脊一陣激寒，彷彿整個人被擊穿，因為就在兩週前，我才與她聯絡。要了她家地址，讓我寫卡片寄給她。她歉然地補上一句：「抱歉，我在醫院治療，所以回覆晚了。」我說：「沒關係，妳還好嗎？」她回：「現在好多了。」於是我對她說：「我會為妳的身體禱告！」
我原以為這是一次平常不過的問候，卻沒想到，這竟成了我們最後的對話。
晚上當我回過神來，騎上摩托車，突然間，眼淚決堤。我放聲痛哭，彷彿體內某個角落，正被主耶穌深深觸動。我沒有時間可以浪費，也沒有資格揮霍分毫，因為我擁有的，實在太多太多。平安，總是比我想像得還要深厚，恩典，總是比我配得的還要豐富。而主耶穌，祂是愛，為我們捨了自己。
這一年來，在主的恢復裡，我寶貴所看見的異象，寶貴被成全的機會，寶貴建立福音的生活。不僅操練自己，去關心身邊的人，寫卡片，發訊息，向國中、高中、大學同學問候他們的生活，關心他們的現況。如果沒有這份操練，今天，我與這位高中同學的所有回憶，便只剩下社群軟體上那張最後的照片，以及一句冷冷的文字：「某某某，在某月某日已安詳離世。」
曾經的我，以為七八十歲以後，才會開始經歷好友相繼離去的感受，從未想過，三十歲的我，竟然也會面對這樣的別離。有些人，曾經深深地進入我們的生命，然後某一天，就像清晨的露珠一般，說不見便不見，說蒸發便蒸發。
我開始反思：我的一生，究竟在忙些什麼？忙到最後，竟然沒有時間關心那些曾經烙印在我們生命裡的朋友？我只能不斷哭泣，但哭過之後，便不該再哭了。因為我們擁有的，只有「現在」。
沒有什麼值得浪費的，就是現在。
求主憐憫使我繼續操練，在每個當下，只做當下最重要的事——讓主的話居首位，為著神家的需要，天天更新奉獻自己。我們有主耶穌，祂愛我們，為我們捨了自己，祂愛每一個人，而此刻，還有許多人，正等著福音臨到他們的生命裡。
Overwhelmed by the Lord’s Gentle Guidance
At this moment, all I can say is that I am overwhelmed by the Lord’s gentle guidance. No words seem sufficient to express the weight of emotion in my heart.
The night before last, I received a message—my high school classmate had passed away due to a virus. A chill ran down my spine as if my entire being had been pierced. Just two weeks ago, I had contacted her, asking for her home address so I could send her a card. She apologized for responding late, saying, “I’m sorry, I’m in the hospital.” I asked, “Are you okay?” and she reassured me, “I’m much better now.” I told her, “I will pray for your health.”
I thought it was just a simple exchange, never realizing it would be our last conversation.
That evening, as I got on my motorbike, tears burst forth uncontrollably. It was as if Jesus had touched the deepest part of my soul. I suddenly felt the urgency of time—I have no right to waste a single moment, no excuse to squander even the smallest blessing. The peace He gives is deeper than I can comprehend, and His grace is far more abundant than I deserve. Jesus, who is love itself, gave Himself for us.
This year, in the Lord’s recovery, I have treasured the vision He has shown me, the wholeness He has worked in me, and the life I have been called to live for the gospel. I have sought not only to grow in my own faith but also to care for those around me—writing cards, sending messages, asking about their lives, and staying connected with my friends from junior high, high school, and college. Without this practice, my only memory of my high school classmate today would be a final photo on social media and a cold message: “So-and-so passed away peacefully on such-and-such a date.”
I used to think that the pain of losing friends would come much later in life, perhaps at 70 or 80 years old. I never imagined that at 30, I would already be facing such partings. Some people enter our lives so deeply, and then one day, like the morning dew, they simply vanish—gone before we even realize it.
I began to reflect: What have I been so busy with? Had I been so consumed with life that I neglected to care for those who once played such an important role in it? I wept. But after the tears, I knew I couldn’t dwell in sorrow. Because all we have is now.
Nothing is worth wasting—not time, not opportunities, not relationships. Now is all we have.
I pray for the Lord’s mercy, that I may continue to focus on what truly matters—putting His Word first, renewing myself daily, and meeting the needs of His home. The Lord Jesus, who loves us and gave Himself for us, still longs to reach many hearts. And at this very moment, countless souls are waiting for the gospel to enter their lives.
May I not waste a single moment.
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