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我們常以為夢想來自更大的舞台、更強的能力、更明確的定位，卻忘了，它其實從「不再用身份定義自己」開始。

五月省思筆記｜當我不再證明自己，夢想才開始長出來

願自己成為一位願意信靠、願意走出去、願意被建造的旅人。

這個月，我走出了舒適圈，踏進兩個截然不同的場域：一個，是教室裡與青少年的夢想對話；一個，是特會信息中靈裡深刻的建造。看似兩個不同世界，卻都帶來相同的提問與邀請——「你願不願意走出去，與人連結？與主對齊？」

【信心邁出去：教學起步】

從未想過，自己會站上校園講台，對一群青少年談「夢想」這件事。

我從一場因骨折而起的減重歷程談起——分享了那些曾無數次減肥、又無數次復胖的血路，也承認自己如何一次次跌倒、再一次次調整。人生不是一條直線，更像是一座階梯，有時甚至下沉到谷底，才又慢慢向上。直到我學會聆聽身體的聲音，也學會與自己的軟弱和平共處。

我最喜歡的，是在那堂課上，大家可以自在地談自己的困難與無力——因為我們都是人，都有類似的掙扎。而在那樣的坦承裡，我們一起學習：跌宕起伏，正是成長與改變的土壤。

一位學生在回饋單上寫道：「覺得老師很美，狀態很自信、放鬆、從容。祝福老師，慢慢朝向自己喜歡的方向前進。」這句話深深打動我——如果我的失敗能成為祝福，那我還有什麼可懼怕的呢？

兩堂夢想設計課，一堂靜默但充滿渴望的對話，一堂是一對一畢業紀念冊的交流。我學到，不需華麗的言詞，只要用心聆聽與真誠連結，就能為他人點亮一盞燈。

💡我學會了：邀請人一起分享與聆聽，並不是冒犯，而是一種信心的表達。就算被拒絕，主仍與我同在。

 【被建造：特會信息的靈魂翻轉】

我帶著混亂的心情走進會場，卻帶著清晰與勇氣離開。起初的不適，讓我不得不再次面對自己的控制慾與身份焦慮。但主在那裡等我——不是要我「更能幹」，而是邀請我「更敞開」。

我是被主愛釋放的自由人，喜歡用創作、教育與靈裡陪伴，傳遞信心與喜樂。我曾經做過許多事——企劃、教學、自媒體、寫作…但我真正渴望成為的，只是「我自己」。那個單純、真實的我。

我聽見一個深刻的聲音對我說：「我不是要你為我完成什麼，而是讓我建造你，成為我神聖的建築。」我終於明白了：夢想，不是靠我實現的，而是祂來成就與建造的。

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這個五月，我真實地經歷了「主動連結」與「靈裡擴張」的轉變。

我不再害怕邀請，因為邀請本身就是一種信心的行動；我不再害怕被拒絕，因為主的同在，比任何人的回應都珍貴；我也學會讓夢想落地，不再倚靠計畫，而是完全順服。我聽見有位學生說：「我想要當作家、想要成為環球旅行者」那一刻，我看見—夢想的種子，落地了。

這個月我學會了：不是等到準備好了才開始分享，而是在分享中被建造，在連結中被擴張。

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💌 給六月的我：親愛的自己，願你每次站上講台時，不為果效焦慮，只為忠信說話；願你在每一場與人的對話裡，都記得——你不是為自己而活，而是為那位夢想的源頭而行！

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🌿 May Reflection Note｜When I No Longer Try to Prove Myself, My Dreams Begin to Grow

May 31, 2025 – Saturday

May I become a traveler who is willing to trust, to step out, and to be built up.

This month, I stepped out of my comfort zone and entered two very different spaces: One was the classroom, engaging in heartfelt conversations about dreams with teenagers; The other was a spiritual conference, where I received deep inner building.

Two seemingly unrelated worlds, yet they asked the same question: “Are you willing to step out—to connect with others, and to align with the Lord?”

🧭 Stepping Out in Faith: The Beginning of Teaching

I never imagined myself standing on a school platform, speaking to teenagers about “dreams.”

My talk began with a story of weight loss triggered by a broken bone—I shared the many cycles of weight loss and relapse, the frustrations, and the long journey of learning to listen to my body and make peace with my weakness. Life isn’t a straight upward line—it’s more like a staircase, and sometimes, a valley. Growth happens in the ups and downs, not in the perfection.

What moved me most was how freely the students could talk about their struggles—because we’re all human, and we all wrestle with similar things. In that space of honesty, we learned that even our lowest moments can become the soil for growth.

One student wrote on the feedback form: “Teacher, you look so beautiful—confident, calm, and at ease. I bless you to keep moving toward the life you truly love.” Those words touched me deeply. If my failures could bring someone a blessing, then what is there left to fear?

I gave two “Dream Design” classes.

The first was quiet, but I could sense a longing in their eyes. The second was a one-on-one yearbook sharing session— I learned not to rush to speak, but to first read their sincerity. It turns out, we don’t need fancy words—just genuine connection can light someone’s way.

💡 I learned this:

To invite others into a space of listening and sharing is not intrusive—it’s an act of faith. Even if I get rejected or the room stays silent, the Lord is still with me.

🕊 Being Built: A Soul-Deep Shift Through the Conference

I entered the conference with a chaotic heart, but I left with clarity and courage. At first, I felt discomfort—it forced me to confront my need for control and my identity anxiety. But the Lord was already there waiting for me— not to make me “more capable,” but to make me more open. I am someone set free by the Lord’s love.

I enjoy expressing faith and joy through creativity, teaching, and spiritual companionship. Yes, I’ve done many things—entrepreneurship, teaching, content creation, writing… But what I truly long to become—is simply myself. The quiet, authentic, joy-filled person in the Lord’s eyes.

I heard a voice whisper deeply within: “I don’t need you to achieve something for Me. I invite you to let Me build you—to become My holy dwelling.”

And then I understood: Dreams are not something I achieve. They are something He builds in me.

💫 May’s Inner Shift: From Isolation to Expansion

This month, I truly experienced what it means to connect intentionally and be spiritually enlarged. I am no longer afraid to invite others—because invitation is an act of faith. I am no longer afraid of rejection—because the Lord’s presence is more precious than anyone’s response. I’ve learned to let my dreams take root—not by relying on plans, but by living in obedience.

One student came to me after class and said quietly, “I actually have dreams too—I just don’t know how to start.” In that moment, I knew: The seed of dreaming had been planted.

This month, I learned: You don’t have to wait until you’re ready to share. You are built through the sharing itself. You grow through connection.

💌 A Letter to My June Self:

Dear Me, When you stand before others, may you speak not out of anxiety for results, but out of faithfulness. When you talk to others, may you remember: You are not living for yourself—but walking for the One who is the source of every dream. Lord, here I am—may You have all of me.