Light Seeker | 找到你的光

If you could meet a historical figure, who would it be and why?

If I could meet any historical figure, my answer comes instantly: I would choose the Lord Jesus.

Recently, I’ve been experiencing an inner struggle—the tension between enjoying Christ in a living way and feeling pushed toward religious forms. Sometimes it seems as though faith must follow a single pattern, as if everyone should look the same in how they express Christ. Yet God created each of us with a unique heart, personality, and story. When spiritual life becomes too uniform, something inside me becomes uneasy and confused.

This feeling keeps returning, and each time I find myself asking:

“Lord, is this truly Your desire? Should sharing the gospel feel like pressure? Should our spiritual activities become mere routines? Did You call us to follow patterns… or to follow You?”

As I processed these questions, I realized how closely my experience reflects Donald Schön’s idea of Reflective Practice.

He describes two kinds of reflection:

• Reflection-in-action: recognizing discomfort in the moment and adjusting our actions to stay true to our inner life rather than outside expectations.

• Reflection-on-action: looking back on an experience, understanding why it felt burdensome, and allowing prayer and scripture to guide new understanding.

This has been exactly my journey. In the moment, I feel something is not right. Afterwards, I reflect, pray, and seek clarity. And truly, the one thing that brings peace the fastest is simply calling on His name:

“Lord Jesus… oh Lord Jesus…It is You, not I. Be more in me. Let Your voice be louder than any human voice.”

Schön’s model reminds me that authentic faith grows not from strict forms, but from continuous reflection. It grows when I allow God to shine into my thoughts, feelings, and decisions—when His presence gently shapes how I live, serve, and relate to others. Through this process, my heart and my actions slowly come into harmony.

To “meet” the Lord Jesus, then, is far more than encountering a historical figure. It is entering a living relationship where His life guides both my practical steps and my inner convictions. In moments of confusion, the reflective process always brings me back to Him—the One who understands my heart before I speak, and the One who brings peace even when everything feels complicated.

So, if I could meet anyone, I would meet the Lord Jesus—the One who is both historical and present today. And through reflective practice, in my profession and in my faith, I hope to keep growing in authenticity, tenderness, and real connection: with Him, with myself, and with the people entrusted to me.

“But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice. For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

Matthew 9:13

References

-Schön, D. (1983). The Reflective Practitioner: How Professionals Think in Action. Basic Books.

-Holy Bible-Recovery Version; Taiwan Gospel Book room