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《更高之地》

我要踏上更高之地——但那裡，究竟是哪裡？

有一段很長的時間，大概是出社會以後吧，我的內心總是分成兩個聲音。一部分的我望向那些走在前面的人，心想：「也許我也可以那樣。」另一部分卻悄悄問自己：「真的做到那樣，就是我想要的嗎？」

後來，我開始嘗試用各種方式表達自己——拍照、寫作、製作影片。把我腦海中那些美的感覺呈現出來，這種創作的感覺讓我非常享受。我記錄下觀察到的現象，也捕捉我所看見的世界的光。

但換一個角度想，也像是在與一個理想中的世界盤旋，試圖達到心中那個「更高的境界」。於是，我永遠有看不完的書、聽不完的教學影片、說不完的話——也結交了一些談天說地的朋友。

直到我過了30歲，我開始發現那個「更高之地」的模樣，好像變了。我曾以為它是一種站在高處向世界吶喊的姿態；但事實上，它更常出現在一些安靜的時刻——在與人磨合的過程中，在重複犯錯後仍願意修正的勇氣裡，在每一次放下自我、走向關係的選擇中。

這次用一場四月的登高之旅來結束2025年的第一季。這是一段長長的上坡，真的會喘，所以只能一小步一小步地走。走累了，就停下來，看看身邊一起努力的人，彼此交換一個笑容，那一刻我感受到心臟的跳動，也聽見內心的真實。

當我們走進那片林深之處，我竟然想起去年初在美國見過的一個景象——沒想到那樣的美景就在嘉義。原來，我一直以為要飛到遠方、攀上高峰才能看見的風景，其實一直就在我腳下。

這樣的發現讓我感受到一種平衡：我更知道該怎麼與自己的內在和環境相處。

我開始接納那個時常對自己要求太高、苛責自己的我，也開始明白：

我不用再這麼辛苦地證明什麼了，因為神已經將最美的戴在我身上、鋪在我腳下。

我踏之處，就是我所尋找的遠方。

只要我的心中有光，有平安。

主耶穌，我愛你。

「主，加我力，將我舉起，

使我踏上更高之地；

使我踏上更高之地；

主，使我立更高之地。」

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“To Higher Ground”

I want to step onto higher ground—but where exactly is that place?

For a long time, probably since entering the workforce, I often found myself torn between two voices.

One voice would look at those ahead of me and say, “If they can do it, maybe I can too.”

The other would quietly ask, “But is that really what I want to become?”

Eventually, I began trying different ways to express myself—through photography, writing, videos. I enjoyed bringing out the beauty I sensed in the world and recording the things I saw.

Yet from another angle, perhaps I was constantly circling around an imagined world, always trying to reach a higher spiritual ground.

So I kept reading more books, watching more lectures, having endless conversations with people who loved to talk about life and truth.

But after turning 30—I began to feel something change.

I once thought that stepping onto higher ground meant standing on a stage and shouting my name to the world.

But in reality, it’s often found in the quiet things:

in the friction of human relationships, in the repetition of old mistakes, in the humble act of trying again.

To end the first quarter of 2025, I chose to climb a real mountain in April.

This climb was no easy feat—I was short of breath, every step felt heavy.

But I learned that when I took small steps and paused to look at the people beside me, smiling and cheering each other on—my heart felt alive and steady.

Then, as we entered a deeper forest, I was reminded of something I once saw in America—

a beautiful scene I never expected to find again, but here it was in Chiayi, Taiwan.

It turns out, the beauty I had been seeking far away had always been beneath my feet.

That realization brought balance to my heart.

I’m learning how to live in harmony with both my inner world and my surroundings.

Even if I still struggle with high expectations and self-criticism,

I now understand—

I no longer need to prove anything.

Because the best of what I need has already been placed upon me, and under my feet.

Where I stand now is the faraway place I once dreamed of.

So long as there is light and peace within,

I am already on higher ground.

Lord Jesus, I love You.

“Lord, lift me up and let me stand,

By faith, on Heaven’s tableland;

A higher plane than I have found—

Lord, plant my feet on higher ground.”